Below are the 19 most recent journal entries recorded in Stefany's LiveJournal:

Saturday, November 8th, 2003
4:12 pm	Marry me, stay the same, loving me and trying to say you never will Ok, im bored i decided to write again, Gabby said i was scared to get into a relationship, I personally dont think that. But good job. I am just picky and i said no to all the guys. sry. Im just like that. Its because I know what i want and when i say no Its because you arent my type., The thing is. When a guy calls me to chill and im not interested i just say OH ill call you back. and i never do. Ithink im a jerk. Oh well. Whatever. Im at this point in my life where I dont really care about many things. Seriously. I suggest you download MY current music ive written below. Its my favorite song ever. It means alot to me. Aswell as iris - goo goo dolls. My dad just called, Saying hes going in the plane now. Hes never here. I miss having a dad. We are so close yet far apart , hes comming back in 2 weeks and afterwards hes leaving for japan. This sucks. I feel so empty. I dont know what to say or to do. Bah. Enough of my venting. Cya Current Music: The used - pieces mended (8 Comments |Comment on this)
4:01 pm	So i went to see Elf last night and saw my ex Rene. Roffl. Oh my was it ever weird. He lkept huggin me and i was like UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh Then he invited me to join him and alot of his friend for his bday which is today. I dotn want to go really. But ive rejected his demands on chilling with him for half a year now. Maybe i just make an appearance. Current Mood: crushed (15 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 6th, 2003
8:31 pm	Hey guys havent written on here for a while, I got 82% in chemistry Class. I feel disapointed I wanted 95% and I know i could of done better. Bah. Anyways, Dan is comming for Christmas. I am so excited, He's wonderful, He makes me so happy. Wow. -sigh- I dont work saturday for the first time in 6 months. My car is busting up.. I think i should buy a new one. [angry] (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, September 21st, 2003
3:37 pm	SO HI I havent been online this much, but that's because i got a new computer. Yay for me. Dan and I hardly talk anymore. But when I do talk to him. I feel so happy. I cant wait to go see him in june. He's a sweetheart. I don't know what I would do without him. He always tries to cheer me up when im down. And he makes me laugh. I couldnt ask for me exept to be with him right now. I work he works. It alternates therefore we talk atleast 4 times a week. this sucks. ;/ Anyways i went to my work party and everyone was so drunk, Im hung over. I didnt get ddrunk byut im not an alcohol fan so my head hurts ;////// Current Mood: lonely (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, August 28th, 2003
2:05 pm	OMG DEATH@RYAN lololololl ah hes gay literally. anyways i hope they both have std's cause they fuck everyone they meet (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 26th, 2003
10:22 pm	sup now i think you should all STEP Ok so ROFL @ all this shit i found out the past 4 days lmao, Me and jas keep laughing at tthis one comment we herd and fucking honeslty its fucking funny. Oh and we fucking left a message on Kara's away message thing ROFL @ me writting | listen you lil slut im now down with waht you are doing right now, but have fun having aids. peace" lmaaoooooooooo and then jas fuckin messaging her too. oh man fuck i love jas. OOOH MAN SHES MY LOVER FOR LIFE> I LOVE YOU <333333333 and omg at him being online im scared the end (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 23rd, 2003
11:21 pm	Jas, you are the greatest friend i've had for 2 years on ftj yet. You still are. THe things that happened today were too much. quote:" things dont last forever" for that person who knows " why you gotta hate like that?" (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, August 22nd, 2003
4:46 pm	Hi, my bird died. I hated it. but i hate to see animals die. Im guessing you know how I feel. the end. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 20th, 2003
6:48 pm	Oh yeah and i forgot to say that im getting fucking sued and lets kill me bye (1 Comment |Comment on this)
6:43 pm	long time eh Wow, its been a while. i completly forgot I had a live journal haha. Lately, I feel so upset,sad,confused everything. I just feel like crying yet there are no tears coming out. I don't know what's going on anymore. And i think everything is my fault because I am the cause of everything. work is going down to hell. court everythign ugh. I need him to be with me right now but hes 4 hours away. It sucks. It's brutal , I am sad. I like him alot. the end. My parents are fighting as fuck , I cant stand being here and everythign is going wrong to the extreme x 84393420. No one wants to understand me. I am what I am. Current Mood: blah Current Music: iris - goo goo dolls (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, July 11th, 2003
2:09 pm	I WORK TOO MUCH L:DPKASFL:FAD I work too much. i got my 400$ paycheck. Im happy yet I can't fucking use it. I have to pay my lawyer. I have to go back to court august 6th and im fucking stressing out. The moron keeps comming to my work. he should back off dude this shit is going to court. Anyways there is this mechanic that likes me. I dont like him the way he likes me... He's older but hes not my type. We are friends. But i just dont want him to ask me out. He will be all sad if i say no and shit. i donno im all fucked lately ;;;;;///// Current Mood: moody Current Music: head club - taking back sunday (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, July 7th, 2003
7:24 pm	wow. I haven't written for the longest time. I guess I was to occupied talking to Ryan =). Well since the day that i realize MIKE was not good enough for me. I met Ryan. You see I thought he was just like sup internet boy. BUt i mean he lives like 4 hours away. He was supposed to come for Canada day and the night before he had called me he's so cute on the phone.He was imitating scottish people. it was funz.But his mom didn't want him to come down to ottawa for Canada day. But she said he could later. And I hope its atleast in 3 weeks. I do like him yes. But I am not dating him NO for people who are asking me. I dont "e-date" so get over yourselves thanks. I just developped feelings for him. I'm sure you people have all been through the same thing. so let's not start judging thanks.I hope he comes soon honestly i'm so excited. he's awesome. Matt got mad at me today. he said "in one week little fag boy moved higher than me, whats wrong with you" I was so upset. I though he'd understand He's #3 on my list. there is nothing wrong with that. He's still mad at me. We dont talk. I really wish he'd stop being mad at me for this ridiculous reason. So today the mechanics asked me to go trick biking with them. wtf they are like pro's at it. its harder than skateboarding well its like bmx'ing i guess. Yeah 2 of them asked me on a date... honestly the only thing on my mind is Ryan. And those guys are playa's [sccccccaaaaaar]]]]]]]]]]]]]]] Anyways tomorrow i'm going to court. i;m so scared, everyone pray for me. this is serious. Current Mood: Scared Current Music: ghost man on third - taking back sunday (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 25th, 2003
12:06 pm	So I am at NRC now. i've been cloning too much it's not even funny.im the youngest student there. I was walking and so i saw a very hot skater scientist. i was like the hell i htought it was only nerds. i guess i was wrong. cause im not a nerd hardy har. yeah im working and i must go to the gym i haven ttalked to mike for 2 days now. weird. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 24th, 2003
9:40 pm	So sup. I just came back from work. this digusting mechanic asked me if i need a ride home and if he could have my number GROSS hes like 28. Work was alright. today was so freakin hot like 45-48 i thought i was going to die when i stepped outside. my pool is 98F. freaking too hot to even swim in there . I keep flipping out knowing im going to prison. and know that on june 30th they are getting my digital prints. and taking a pic of me for my criminal record. I dont understand. It was not my fault. it was on private property too . Its not like it was on the road. jesus christ. well last night mike came online (MSN) at 11! i was like the fuck late much. but then he kept saying he was sorry and that he was at the music studio for his cd. i said it was ok. knowing mike.hes not too great withgirls. but now we are talkin just like the old days. I like it. but I dont like him the way i used to. But i still have feelings for him of course. I will always have feelings for that guy. He probably does as well. it shows. My best friend is always right. when we stopped talking my best friend told me" I bet you guys will go out" i was like what are you talking about we dont even talk anymore. Yet i wish we do. I dont know how i feel about him anymore? But there's Brock (Bfetch) on ftj. he's a really nice guy hes pretty harsh reminds me of myself hes not the type of guy thats all sweet and mushy mushy with girls like 99.9% of guys on ftj.hes just like really straight forward. like i said i was 5'1 then i was like "yeah im a midgit"then he was like oh fuck if i ever meet you and youre a migdgit im out running back home. haha what a harsh guy but he can be sweet, Like he told me i wasnt just internet to him. we talk on the phone alot. hes the only actual guy on internet that i talk on the phone wiht. we will meet soon. i know it. he just got sugery and he hasnt been on much. and got a new job so he will be makin money and buya jet plane to come over. hardy har. Matt (xelium) hes a super sweet guy as well. wed have fun together irl. matt (thegoon) he;s super cute. today we were discussin about the summer and he said he would come to ottawa with his brother so he can chill with me and stuff thats always fun! <3 latez Current Mood: aggravated (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, June 23rd, 2003
9:12 pm	k k so I might just die. I found out that my friends told the investigator of my criminal case, a lie. THey gave this guys number (chris) that wasnt there at the accident. we hate each other we were once best friends but we hate each other. Apparently the other guy has a lawyer and told the investigator to get the "fuck off his property" im screwed. i'm gonna go to prison and get rapped by disgusting prisoners. I dont know what to do. Im flipping out. holy fuck im flipping out. im going to die. I have no futur comming for me. ANd that Mike guy is fucking me over. im not surprised. hes not good with girls. hes not on msn yet. Im not going to hang out with him. he was probably drunk when he was speaking to me. but its ok. im giong to go get my woody's alcohol now. peace/ Current Mood: depressed Current Music: smashin pumpkins - disarmed (5 Comments |Comment on this)
5:07 pm	k so Last night. this guy Mike. well this goes on forever. he is a drummer we liked each other forever untill i found out by his best friend that he is in love with somone else from toronto.(5 hours away) and that they agreed to see other people aslong as it is not serious. She is moving back to ottawa this summer. so i was like fuck it. we stopped talking to each other for about a month. Until last night, he messaged me on MSN. and usually he doesnt even answer cause he either leaves his msn on or he plays games on the computer leaving his msn on. ANyways we were dicussing about why we stopped talkign each other untill i mentioned the thing about the girl her name is Erin. he was just like HE TOLD U that. i was like yep hes like yeah he wants us to get married. i dont. but i dont know if hes just saying that so i dont get mad . but then he decidded to cam with me like the good old days. and asked me if i wanted to hang out with him tomorow ( which is today) but he has band practice till 8. he never asks ppl to chill. weird. and after he was like hmmmmm im just not sure when ill be back. so then he was havign doubts. again.weird. im all confused n shit. but whatever, shit happens . then today some people sent me some papers to apply at a modeling angency. i was like the fuck im ugly. end of story (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 12th, 2003
3:05 pm	HAPPY BDAY TO ME im old sup. yeah so i went to the gym this morning. woke up at 12. hardy har. gots lots of presents waiting for me haha. Yeah so i have 2 2/4's waiting for me ! so sup at my bday being the coolest ever.! yeah its pretty hot right now Im going swimming in my 92 F pool. bye <33333 (10 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 10th, 2003
4:07 pm	hardy har LOL. so i am dying my hair. and Brock (bfetch on FTJ) Calls me while im dying my hair hahaha and compltly forgot the dye was in my hair till he told me he was going to call back. im still waiting for his call. when i talk on the phone i make no sense typing on messangers cause i cant do 2 things at a time. so Charlie sent me this hot pic and all i said was ok kool and i didnt even realize it. lol it was hot and now hes offline maybe pissed????????? (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, June 9th, 2003
10:59 pm	SO SUP YOUNG BLOODS Anyways. today i worked. this guy at work Chad. hes really hot yet very conceited and hes just a player and a jock. My birthday is in 4 days.(june 12) so he decided to talk to my mother as she came to pick me up cause i didnt have the car. they ended up talking for like 2 hours. I was getting pisses cause im PMS-ING K so DONT MESS. anwyas THanks matt for giving me a code. And Ashley<3 for lending me one of hers. ANwyasy yeah my day </3 (Comment on this)